i think it's time to change into a new skin.

changes in life. difficult decisions. people saying hi's and goodbyes. thanking god for THOSE moments. stumbling and falling. alone time. sleepless nights. heart to heart talks. having a shoulder to cry on. people who love you so much. running under the rain with that person. loneliness. confusion. gratitude.

my life (and everyone's as well) is a series of ups and downs, lots of things are happening to me right now that sometimes i just wish that all of them just leave me. that i live my OWN life. the way i want it to. carefree, free from commitments and responsibilities. i admit, most of the time i don't want to be anything or anyone anymore. i'm tired of being a friend. someone who just have to listen to other people's problems and complaints. i have my own problems already, thankyouverymuch. i am tired of being a daughter. a daughter who needs to study very well, follow her parents and should try as much as she can not to let her family down. i am tired. yes, i am. but still, i live. i try to keep my sanity not just because i have to, but i WANT to. life may offer so much pain, but this pain is the very thing which teaches us to continue on and be a stronger person. besides, i don't get my strength from myself, but from someone up there who knows my limits, someone who would never give me pain which i couldn't bear. it's such a comfort to know that we don't have to live and direct our own lives, because if that happens, i guess love, gratitude, happiness, and all those other stuff wouldn't be existing in our world.

it doesn't matter how many times you fall, but what matters most is how many times you get up and go back to him. that we learn to trust him. to not be scared. to just live our lives every single day, with the thought whatever happens, somebody will be there engraved in our minds.

i want to cry, shout, and dance. i know you won't care.

because with you, I CAN BE ME.