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Monday, April 30, 2007

Pffsh. In my two years of blogging, I haven't had a birthday post pa ATA, as in on April 29 mismo. I'm not really sure and I'm too tamad to check. Haha. :p But anyway, at least I am blogging about it the day after hehe.

Know what? As far as I can remember, this has been my simplest birthday evah. :) As in no hubaloos such as ice cream, madami food, balloons, friends coming over, and all that shebang. But does it mean I didn't have fun? Nah. This has been the simplest, yet one of the grandest birthdays. :) I'm glad that even if my birthday didn't turn out the way I imagined it to be, I can say that this has been one of the most unforgettable. :)

Topak ko lang siguro, but I remember I told this to one of my friends that whenever my birthday comes, I treat it as a really special day, a day where I want to be THE PRINCESS. It's like I own the day, that everyone around me should be kneeling and praising me..Well, not really. Haha. Pero you get the drift; akin dapat yung araw. But the day yesterday was a whole lot different. And it's through this that I was able to learn something, that it's not always about me. (Wow, am I seeing the choleric Jo again? Bumabalik na yehey!) No swimming party, no birthday gift from family, but still. I am happy. :)

I love birthdays. It's when you get to appreciate more your friends, that you become aware that they are thinking of you, that they remember it's your day. :) 12:01 am pa lang ng April 29, text messages kept rushing in, and it'll last the whole day. Birthday greetings from close friends, not-so-close friends, even acquaintances. Ain't that touching? They know my birthday! Add to that, nakakatouch din yung old friends, the ones you rarely talk with (or never talk to again since HS graduation!), tapos all of a sudden some unknown number texts you and greets you a happy birthday! *I wonder where they got my number?* Hehe. It's like a mini-reunion, that because someone celebrates his/her birthday, an opportunity to keep in touch with old friends is given. :) Tapos, you appreciate all your friends even more dahil ang dami nilaaaang naggreet! Yung tipong pagod ka na magreply and mag-thankyou to all their messages and greetings, mapa-text, Friendster, Multiply, phonecall or even sa personal! Pinaka-gamit na word mo talaga is "Thank You!" hahaha. And, up to now, kahit April 30 na, may mga iba pang pahabol greetings, plus the nang-aasar friends reminding me that I'm already 19 at greet pa rin ng greet. Hahaha.

And to recognize my top 5 greeters (meaning they were the first 5 people to greet me!) heto na. Hahaha :)

1. Mr. Wilfred Evan "Jovan" Jotojot!

a.k.a "Macho Gwapito"..Hehe. He was the 1st one to greet me, called me up sa cell. Actually when he called, it was just 11:58 on my clock. Haha. Pero umabot naman ng 12 midnight na nag-usap kami, so technically he was really the 1st one. :) A friend for 7 years, I've seen this guy grow and mature. Can't explain, but really, God has blessed him with so much, tignan niyo na lang ngayon, poging-pogi na. Hehehe. ;) Thanks Princey/Bodyguard/Labs, marami pa tayong joke-joke-an siguro na names na mabubuo for each other, and I am really happy that you're part of my life. At least for 7 years. And we're still counting. :)

2. Mr. Oliver Cheong!

This was where I first experienced being "super touched" on my birthday. Kasi of all the people who could greet me first, Oliver was one of them. Second greeter pa! To think that we're just new friends. Oliver is now my co-DOP, he was recently accepted to the DO. :) I remember pa that I was the one who interviewed him for his initial interview when applying for the DO, and now he would be my co-worker starting next term. Thanks Oliver! I hope to know you more, and welcome to the DO family! :)

3. Mr. Hector Macapagal!

Wala kami pic na kami lang. Hehe. Hector's the one with shades. :) Isa pa tong mokong na nagpa-touch sakin. Like Oliver, he is also new to the DO family. But he's one of the 1st people who greeted me. Aww. I used to see him lang din sa DO, meeting the application requirements. Tatahi-tahimik, pero hindi naman pala. And yeah, he loooves flooding my Multiply too. Hindi lang pala Multiply, pati inbox. Hahaha. Peace man. Thanks for all the comments and text messages, I am sure we appreciate it all. I'll be looking forward to more bonding sessions and laughtrips with you! :)

4. Mr. Timothy John "TJ" Dumapig!

Jovan's bestfriend, and certainly one of my favorite buddies. :) We've also known each other for 7 years now, and still, TJ's the same old makulit friend that I know. Lots of things have happened which "kind of" tested our friendship (note: his bestfriend, my bestfriend + relationships haha), pero sorry na lang to all those series of unfortunate events, prens pa rin kami ni TJ. And that'll be forever, dude. ;)

5. Mr. Raymund Christopher "Archie" Dineros!

a.k.a. PBB a.k.a. Papa Bear ng Bayan! Hehehe. :) One of the mga "bibong bata" sa DO, this guy never fails to make the DOs and his co-DOPs smile. Such a charming person, basta pag nanjan na si Papa Bear, happy na! Thanks for being who you are Archie, many people are inspired by your personality, especially your charm. *ehem* Haha :p Napaka-carefree, that people around you just feel light pag nanjan ka. Tuloy lang Papa Bear, and hooray for being a super great P.R.O.! ;)

(And of course, pakilala na rin natin ang numbers 6-10 haha):

6. Mr. Raymond Patrick "Micko" Del Rosario - a.k.a. my kapatid! :) Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to him also! Yes, we have the same birthday. He called me up sa cel, so we greeted each other haha. Pero mas gurang siya sakin by 1(000) years. Nyahaha :p Salamat sa mga laughtrip sessions (mapa-personal man o online o text), insomniac memories, crazy escapades, at labuan moments kapatid! Magdiwang tayong lahat!! Hahaha anlabo, sugo! Nyehehe. (Bakit ba pag ikaw na pinag-uusapan, nawawala ako sa ulirat?? Nyahaha. Sayang hindi ka umabot sa top 5, wala ka tuloy picture! Hehe! Next year, next year.) :p

7. Ms. Rovy Jarvis Malasan - aha finalleh! A girl! :) I was super touched that Ate Rovy remembered my birthday. I never expected that she'd be one of the 1st people to greet me. I remember pa that she was busy when she texted and greeted me. But still, she found the time to compose a birthday message for me. Aww. :) This girl is a great great warrior of God, I tell you people. Idol hands down. I hope to have more bonding sessions with you Ate Rovy, and we miss you at church! :)

8. Mr. Philip Norman Young - Polyp! My blockmate. :) Haha. A close friend of Micko! Another unexpected greeter! Kasi we're not that close, pero one of the 1st! I miss C36 memories Philip! Hope to be able to go out again with you and Micko and Carlo and kung sino pa gusto niyo isama!! Hehehe! :p

9. Mr. John Kenneth "Ken" Ramos - a.k.a. "bes". Hehe. Grabe, I just realized tuloy na I'm kind of fond of calling my friends with different names. Haha. Anyway, another co-DOP, we've been calling each other bes because..really, I don't remember. HAHA. Basta, it just came one day. Ken was one of my 1st friends in DO, nung mga panahong wala talaga akong kilala sa DO. He was one of the approachable makulit persons during the panel interview when we were applying pa for the DO. And now, our friendship has blossomed and he considers me now as one of his "true friends". Yes naman. And oh, he's an April baby too, he just turned 21 last April 27. *Apir bes!* :)

10. Ms. Clarissa Ann "Cla" David - my C36 blockmate and present ENTRES groupmate! :) A kulasa at heart din! :) Also one of my friends I really treasure. I remember that we became friends because we discovered that we both come from the same HS (though she's from St. Scho Pampanga and I'm from St.Scho Manila). Iba talaga pag kulasa. Right Cla? :) Latest memory with her? The MOA gimmick! Hehe. Had fun spending the time with you Cla together with the girls. I know there's more to come. Loveyou girl! :)

Yes. So there we have it. My top greeters for this year. ;)

And of course, there's more! All the other greeters! From the 1st greeter to the last, all of you have received my heartfelt THANKS. :) Sobra. Walang pinaka-special and least special greeter, what's important is all of you touched me on my birthday. :) You guys made my birthday EXTRA, EXTRA SPECIAL. :)

Shucks, I am so blessed with so much people who love me. :)

# random thougths @ 9:04 PM

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Ooh. This is my 305th blog entry. Niiice. Biro niyo, I've managed to post 305 entries since March 2005? To think that I'm not the "I love to write so so much!" person.

It's 1:52 AM on my clock, and in less than 23 hours, I'd be turning 19. Oh yeah. How exciting. Haha. Hm. I dunno, I should be happy right? Lalo na that my friends remember my birthday. And I could attest to that, because as early as a week before Sunday (my birthday), they have been constantly reminding me that I'd be a year older. Gah. Hehe. But really, I appreciate it. It isn't too big of a deal if someone remembers your birthday right? But still, I appreciate it. Lalo na yung mga hindi ko masyado nakakausap, pero yun pala they remember my birthday. Aww. I love you guys :) You'd be part of my greeter's list on my birthday post ;) Hehe.

Uggghh. Wala lang. I'm just not in the mood to think creatively about what to write. I'm just so restless right now, so pardon me for the incoherence (if magkakaron man).

I just feel so bad right now, because I can't help but think how people can be so stubborn. (Hey Ching! Lookie! I am blogging about something I am feeling ON THE SPOT! So like you! Hehehe). Yung tipong hindi lang makuha yung gusto, magagalit na? Err. I admit that I am also stubborn at times, pero not to the point na masasabihan ko na nang masama yung taong nagpa-badtrip sa akin. I'd prefer to shut my mouth na lang. It just makes me think tuloy that that certain person still keeps me as his/her (okay let's protect this person's dignity) "friend" because nakukuha pa niya gusto niya. What if hindi na? What if I'm tired acting so patient and giving him/her what he/she wants? Wala na? Friendship over? Ganun na lang ba? Isn't that what you call a user? Diba friendship means sticking with that person through thick or thin? Respecting each other? A two-way relationship? Eh what's happening now? Parang parasitism na e. Getting what he/she wants even if it means I'm suffering. It doesn't matter if I suffer, as long as he/she gets what he/she wants?? Kamusta?? Knock, knock. Do you know what you're doing? And you have the nerve to get mad at me for not giving you what you want? Er. I duno if you read my blog, but if you do, this is what I really want to tell you. I just really can't when we talk because you would never listen. I know it. I don't really care now if you think that all this time, I still haven't changed. Wala na akong magagawa. YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THINKING LIKE THAT TOWARDS ME. I know all my friends love me for who I am, and I know that I am NOT the kind of person na akala mo. Remember that. So stop telling me na "hindi ako marunong mag-isip at nandadamay pa ko ng ibang tao". And yeah, don't use "leche" when you talk to me. It's not nice. And, JUST TO TELL YOU. Your bestfriends love you so much, ang galing nila para tumagal pang nagtitiis sayo. Ako, nagtitiis pa rin, but I just can't accept the fact na the very people who care for you so much are also the very people who you hurt so much. Is it because you're confident that they won't leave you no matter what? You can think that way, coz yeah it's proven anyway that they're true friends. But let me tell you this dude, people do give up too. ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY FEEL ABUSED. Alam kong matalino ka at naiintindihan mo ako. It's just that you have TOO MUCH PRIDE TO ADMIT THAT YOU'RE WRONG THIS TIME. Sinong nagturo sakin mawala ang pride? Who keeps on giving me advice about swallowing my pride? You're one of them. So don't you go around being proud that you know these things kung ikaw mismo napakalaki ng pride mo. Ano bang nakain mo at naging ganyan ka na? Umayos ka na.

I should do this more often, Ching. It's a stress-reliever. But I'm afraid that this could turn into a hate blog. Haha kiddin'. ;)

# random thougths @ 1:32 AM

Friday, April 27, 2007

"Okay. I'm sorry. Things just have been so lazy lately. After the frequent pressures we have been experiencing, I just can't help but enjoy the days I have left. I am sorry."

-- Para kay Silver my blog.

Hehehe. Yeah I know, I've been ignoring my blog since April 9, my last post. It's been a while since I last visited my blog, literally. I go online everyday, but I don't find myself clicking the link to blog. I dunno why. It's been the 14th day of my summer vacation, and lots of things have already happened. But I just can't find the interest to write about them in my blog. Maybe because there's my Multiply site, where I keep track of my summer highlights through pictures? Now I see why we are called the "visual generation"..Haha. Or imbento ko lang yun?? Hehe!

Hay where to start? Where to start? Hm. Maybe I can work my way backwards? Or not. I duno, magkkwento na lang ako. Hehe. XD

--> Okay, it's only two days before my birthday. Now what? Honestly, I don't have any plans. I don't even imagine myself enjoying on that day. Well, I originally had plans. But everything went down the drain since that Sunday afternoon where my mom and I talked about it. I asked her and my dad if they would allow me to have a simple swimming party with my church friends (since my birthday would be a Sunday, it would be a good idea that after church, I'd bring them all home XD), just a simple pool near our village. And of course, I got a "no". I asked why, my mom told me that "she doesn't want to be held responsible if something happens". Since I wanted so much to celebrate with friends, I assured her that nothing will happen and "hindi naman kami magtutulakan sa pool". But I still got no as an answer. My sister even defended me by saying that "Hayaan niyo na, ang laki-laki na nila e. And birthday naman nya yun e." (I was really touched by what my sister did. :) Actually, I sooo appreciate it whenever she does that) So being a stubborn daughter (believe me, I am), namilit pa rin ako. Then my mom told me that "Gagastos na naman, may bago ka na ngang phone". (My mom recently gave me a new phone as an early birthday gift. It was a surprise). I told her "Hindi ko naman pinabili yung phone e." Then she immediately told me "Sige, eh di ibalik mo sakin." Right then and there, I really wanted to return the phone. I dunno, but I just felt hurt at that moment. Don't get me wrong, I understand na ayaw nilang gumastos pa, pero honestly I prefer pa spending my birthday with my friends and family than having a new phone for myself. Besides, it was a surprise present. I didn't really want it. So I can't blame myself if I wanted something else. O_o

--> And think about it. I used to have a Motorola L6 phone, then my mom gave me a Nokia 6070. All the while I thought that finally I'd have two phones, one for my Sun and one for my Globe (w/c I know my dad won't approve. He strongly told me na "one phone only" when I was pleading for an extra phone). But moments after my mom gave me the new phone, she told me that "Ibibigay mo na kay Jason yang Motorola mo ha." I was like "What?!" Kasi I really don't want to give that phone up. Not that I'm selfish or whatever, but I just valued that phone so much and dahil lang may kapalit na siya na hindi ko naman hiningi, mawawala na siya sa akin? And lately I've been thinking, isn't a gift something given to you na walang kapalit?? I've been given a new phone, but I have to give up the other one?? So parang exchange yun..If you look at it closely, parang yung kapatid ko pa yung nagka-gift, coz he received something without giving up something. Pffssh. I don't know. It just makes me..Blah.

--> On the lighter side of things, I am happy that Benz and I have been warming up on each other again. Okay wag magmalisya, we're just working our way up into being friends again. And I mean FRIENDS, not just co-workers sa DO. Not the type that we talk because we HAVE to, but we talk because we enjoy each other's company. Yes, we've been talking (mostly online) since the start of the year, but we only talk about our Econ class where the two of us are classmates. But thanks to the DO Teambuilding last April 20-21, circumstances have been very cooperative. Unresolved issues and concerns have been brought up again, and I am glad we were able to talk about it again (dahil it has always been there since December last year!). Ms.Jen, kung ikaw man yung may pakana nung activity na yun, thanks! We really needed that. :) Sorry's and thank you's were given, and we both agreed that it'd be better if we start again. And this time, as friends. Hehe. :)

--> To Benz, I dunno if you still visit my blog (since that day you saw my Valentine's post last year hehe), but I want to thank you for everything. I really don't know specifically what to thank for, but I just wanna thank you for being you. The whole package. Astig ka, I love your personality and carefree nature. Hindi obvious (haha hindi grabe) pero whenever you're around, nabubuhay lahat ng tao. There's just something in you that's so special, na you lighten up people when you're around. Nakaka-amaze. Baka dahil sa kabaklaan mo?? Hahaha joke lang. We all know na sadyang vain ka lang. :p I duno, my thanks is the only thing I could give you. Coz I have nothing more to offer. Thanks for opening up during the bonfire, at least things have been settled. :) And, I'll never forget our "ketchup debate" haha. Ang banana ketchup ay banana, at ang tomato ay tomato. Walang ketchup na pinaghalong banana at tomato okay. Imbento ka. XD And yeah, yung favorite emoticon mo oh --> XD. Hahaha. Be more visual brother, maaapreciate mo din yan. Hehe. Here's to a better start and deeper friendship. *Cheers* :)

--> You won't believe it friends and countrymen, but while I was doing that thing above, Mr. Bermudez (a.k.a. the person I was talking about above) messaged me in YM para mangulit ulit. Haha. Talk about coincidence. Now that proves the text message quote that "human minds are linked through neuron activities that when you're thinking about that person, mostly probably he/she is also thinking about you". Yehes. Haha.

--> I am currently addicted to Friendster surveys. And it's not good. It gives me headaches once in a while, but still, I answer them. Maybe it's because I rarely get to talk to my friends nowadays and give them updates about my life (read: CHING!!!) kaya nalalabas ko lang through answering them. Haha. Oh wel at least more people get updated when they read my Friendster survey answers. :p

--> For the past 2 weeks, I am also getting the hang of online shopping in Multiply. Compared to Friendster surveys, this is all the more not good. It's baaad. It's worse. I get so attracted to different items, that it just enhances my quality of being an impulsive shopper. Graaah. Help me. Help. Me. But why is that those very things that you know you shouldn't really be addicted to are those same things that you so enjoy doing? Pft. Parang bisyo. If I get scolded for buying too much, I can say that at least hindi ako addicted to drinking or even smoking. ;p Haha. Excuseees.

--> How can people be so insensitive? I mean, ikaw ba, if may taong may ayaw sayo, hindi mo ba naffeel or napapansin? Diba you feel it naman? I duno, at least I do. I just don't find it very touching na if a certain person keeps following you around, after you telling him his limitations. Okay, yeah I appreciate all the efforts, but kung hindi ka pa talaga ready magpaligaw ulit (or talagang you don't find him as a potential boyfriend) , bakit ba parang namimilit pa rin? Grabe. For the record, he's inviting me to have dinner with him, and I'll treat it na lang daw as his birthday treat for me. And he's prepared something pa daw. Noooo. He shouldn't have. Seriously. Hindi po ako makukuha sa mga ganun. Hay. Just please understand?

--> I can't wait for May! Skip my birthday, it's okay, I just want May to come! Because I'll be busy by then. DO work, here I come! :) I'll get to see my co-DOPs pa who are super fabulous friends! Hay I love love love you guys :)

--> And of course, I am so looking forward to May 13-14! Anilao baybeh! With HS friends :D Can't wait!! I miss you mean girls! ;)

--> I am so loving the song "I know Him by Heart" by Vonda Shepard! It keeps me motivated to really wait for my special someone :) Hay. Here are the lyrics, and my favorite parts are emphasized, though I love every word in the song :)

There's a secret path I follow
To a place no one can find
Where I meet my perfect someone
I've kept hidden in my mind
Where my heart makes my decisions
'Till my dream becomes a vision
And the love I feel
Makes him real someday

'Cause I know he's out there somewhere
Just beyond my reach
Though I've never really touched him
Or ever heard him speak
Though we've never been together
We've never been apart
No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart

Am I living in an illusion?
Wanting something I can't see
If I compromise, I'd be living lies
Pretending love's not meant to be
'Cause I know my heart's worth saving
And I know that he'll be waiting
So I'll hold on and I'll stay strong 'till then

'Cause I know he's out there somewhere
Just beyond my reach
Though I've never really touched him
Or ever heard him speak
Though we've never been together
We've never been apart

No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart
No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart

Yes. I know. It's beautiful. ♥ :)

# random thougths @ 6:24 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

Huy grabe 12 days din pala akong hindi nagpost. Tuloy-tuloy eh. My last post was about hell week, and it was REALLY one heck of a week. Akalain mong marami na nga kayong papers na issubmit, inulit niyo pa yung isa? As in start from scratch! And yes, that was our FINAMA paper. We had to have 4 financial statements to analyze kasi, and all those four should be from the same company. Kami naman, yung nakuha namin it was ALMOST the same company. Ang mali lang is yung 1st 2 years ay RFM, then the last two years were Swift financial statements. The problem was subsidiary ng RFM yung Swift, so yung values sa FS nung RFM billions tapos sa Swift thousands lang! And we only realized it the day before the submission of the paper. So hanap na naman kami ng new set of FS! And I tell you people, hindi madali maghanap!! Inisa-isa ko yung listed companies sa Philippine Stock Exchange website just to look for financial statements! Whew. Pero to make the long story short, we were able to pass our paper before 5pm on the day of submission. Good thing pinagbigyan kami ni Sir Lim na magpass before 5. Thanks Sir! :)

After the last day of our hell week which was April 4, di na ko naka-blog coz I was so tired dahil sa kulang na kulang na tulog kaya natulog na lang ako. Hehe. Then the day after that we were off na to Batangas for our church's family camp. We just got back last April 7. Whoo ang sayasaya nung camp! Then April 8 siyempre church and I slept again kasi bawi sa mga nawalang tulog ulit! Hehehe! Hay sarap talaga matulog! And since it's Araw ng Kagitingan Day, I'm free! Pero aral na ulit later dahil may apat na final exams pa ako!! Raaar grabe ang tagal ng pasok namin..Hehe. Pero oks lang. Masaya naman. :D

O sige, I'm off na! Nakiki-singit lang ako kay mom habang may kausap pa siya sa phone. :) I'll be telling my camp stories on my next post, abangan dahil ma-pictures ito!! Yeah! :)

# random thougths @ 11:24 AM