You are my Twisted Sunshine.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

whew. i just finished my 1st week of college in de la salle university manila. the week went really well, i had fun. :) the teachers were nice, lalo na my blockmates. we are 42 in the block and we bond with each other pretty well. but of course di naman lahat friends ko na kaagad. though i'm really happy that napunta ako sa barkada na masaya talaga kasama. :)

during the 1st day of school, i wasn't really nervous na kase i met na my blockmates so i had some "friends" na rin. the 1st day was full of orientations from the different subjects, introduction to blockmates and profs, group activities, and of course, full of course syllabus. so pag uwi ko ang dami ko nang papel. hehe.

i thought that during the 1st week, easy-easy lang. now i realize that was highschool. i'm now in college. wake up jo. YOU'RE NOW IN COLLEGE. during the 1st two days, we already had a number of homeworks to do. no choice. i can't complain. so i just did them. we also had a written report na kaagad. and some quizzes next week. [god forgive them, they don't know what they are doing to us students..] but inspite of all the hecticity [haha. nice. i invented a new word], i still have time to make new friends and have fun.

yesterday lang, i was able to "bond" with my blockmates. it was really fun. nung una, sa volleyball. PE namin un. of course you had to have some people to play with you. so un. the 2nd one was after PE classes. we had a break from 9 am to 10:30 am. we had nothing to do so the girls decided to go to our blockmate's dorm near la salle and make tambay there. palamig lang kami dun kase mainit. hehe. we also ate a bit and drank some juice. so there. the most exciting part of my day yesterday was when i ate lunch with my block barkada at houseblend. marami kami nun and talagang laughtrip kami. it was like matagal na kaming magkakakilala. i want to describe each person in my block barkada para u get an idea of how different each person in our group is but still we manage to be with each other. :)

1. there's shana. shana's my batchmate too at st.scho but we NEVER get to talk when we were still studying at SSC. we don't really have common friends and it's as if like impossible na maging friends kami. but no. she's now one of my closest friends in the block and even if we have great differences, kami pa rin ang magkasama. :)

2. there's alan. alan's from la salle greenhills. during the 1st few days of school, shana, alan and i are the ones na magkakasama. he seems quiet at 1st pero feeling mo lang un. hehe. i also think that he has leadership skills and talagang gentleman naman. naks! [thanks nga pala for the times na nagpapasama ako anywhere..haha!] :)

3. there's ching. ching's from..uh..can't remember. haha. sori na. akala mo rin tahimik pero hindi naman. she really is nice to people and kahit inaalaska sha ng mga guys sa group namin, she knows how to deal with it. :)

4. there's daniel. we call him dan. dan's from san beda college alabang. he's one of the most confident people in our group. haha. confident in a way that he's not shy to talk to anybody and even if he don't know us that much yet, nakakasayaw at kanta sha sa harap namin. haha. one of the most sabog guys in our group. :)

5. there's anj. anj's from i dunno too. sori. hehe. this girl's the one na hindi ko pa talaga nakakausap. it's because when we go out, hindi sha nakakasama. i dunno kung san sha pumupunta pero i'm sure i'll get to know her more. :)

6. there's nico. nico's real name is nicole. but he's a guy. cool. haha. basta may story behind that. i can't remember kung san school sha galing. he reminds me of sum1 i know back in hs. but i can't remember kung sinong batchmate ko un. nico's a really chinito guy and may pagka-makulit na tahimik. pero kung humirit, ang kulit. haha. :)

7. there's kathy. kathy's from st. jude college. not sure if college ba ang st. jude basta un. haha. another tahimik girl in our group. she's the only person din pala na i know na kapag tumatawa walang sound. as in literal. so cool. haha. ang sarap nyang panoorin tumawa kase ang tahimik pa rin. chinita girl din sha and masaya kasama kahit quiet. :)

8. there's micko. micko's from ateneo hs. super tahimik nitong guy na toh. di sha humihirit sa mga laughtrip. he just prefers to laugh along with the group. kahit ganyan si micko, ang tingin ko sa kanya is potential "kuya". hehe. i dunno basta ganun. :)

9. there's badz. badz's our kuya/ate. hehe. but she prefers to be called kuya. kaya ayan. gets nyo na un. hehe. she's from st. bridget college in batangas. she's our host pag tumatambay kami sa dorm pag break. badz's another person in our group na may leadership skills. she's also really friendly to our other blockmates. :)

10. there's jiggy. jiggy's from de la salle zobel. we also have 3 more dlsz blockmates but sa amin sha sumasama. haha. this guy's also super tahimik. parang mas gusto pa nyang manahimik kesa mag-ingay. hehe. he's not a really talkative person pero sasagot naman sha pag kakausapin mo sha. hehe. :)

11. and finally, there's carlo. carlo's from ateneo hs too same as micko. eto ang champion magpatawa. whenever our group starts to die down and be quiet, he'll crack a joke and bigla kaming magkaka-adrenalin rush. haha. he's the reason why our group is maingay. kasama pa nya si dan. they have the loudest voices in the group. haha. patuloy lang sa pagpapatawa carlo. tama yan. :)

so there. during the 1st week, yan ang nabuo na group sa block namin. sana wala nang humiwalay or sana may dumagdag pa. hehe. :)

back to my story. after we ate at houseblend, dan suddenly had this urge to sing. so nagyaya mag-videoke. haha. we went to providence tower and we sang. mapilit silang lahat lalo na si carlo and dan so pati ako napakanta nila. hehe. pasalamat keo guys kumanta ako kase 2nd time ko pa lang kumanta sa ganun! haha. we stayed there for about 45 mins lang cguro kase we had our next class pa. so there. ang saya! :) next gimmick naman namin is to watch house of wax. nyahaha. manlilibre si alan. whoopee!! haha. so there. my 1st week at dlsu was really exciting and ngayon pa lang, i already love my block. :)

# random thougths @ 9:09 AM

Friday, May 20, 2005

i think for years ngayon ko lang ulit toh nagawa. bonding with my little bro. naaks. as far as i have observed, we always have petty fights almost everyday. mali. EVERYDAY pala. haha. but today, no arguments, no fights, no whatever. yes naman. :)

our bonding started when we left the house at 1 pm to go to makati, sa clinic ng dentist/churchmate namin na si tita beth. my brother and i had to commute lang coz my parents are already in the office and di naman ako marunong magdrive diba. hehe. so we spent 2 hours commuting from paranaque to makati. when we got there, i had my teeth cleaned and i had my retainers na rin for my lower teeth [yehey! no braces..weee..sa taas pa!] while my bro had his teeth cleaned too and binunutan sha. yey. after that, we both went to dad's office to make tambay there for a while. he was not in his office so we texted mom if my brother and i cud go to glorietta to watch a movie. eventually, pinayagan kami. yehey.

so there. we were both planning to watch "the house of wax" kaso when we got to g4, 6 out of 8 cinemas were showing starwars episode 3! aaah! ang natira nalang ay dalawang cinemas, which were showing "amityville horror" and "kingdom of heaven". i checked greenbelt 3 and glorietta one cinemas too, kaso, no "house of wax" parin. darn. nasa g4 din ako kahapon, pero may "house of wax" pa, ngayon wala na. darn starwars 3. anyway, my bro wanted to watch "amityville horror" [which was the movie i saw yesterday at g4 too], so kahit napanood ko na, ok lang. naaks. good ate. haha. ayun! he enjoyed the movie naman, at ako din. haha. mas natakot pa nga ako kanina compared kahapon! haha! so there. after that, we went straight sa office ni mom na nasa likod lang ng greenbelt. and here i am now, writing this entry. haha. my bro's at the other computer, playing pc games. hehe. :)

ansaya ng bonding namin. sa uulitin lil bro. ;p

# random thougths @ 11:53 AM

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

this afternoon, my college in DLSU [college of business and economics] had the convocation. kung informal welcome ung nangyari kahapon [which was written sa previous blog entry ko], eto naman ay formal welcoming of froshies. so pati ang mga nametag namin ay formal. talagang real name ung nakalagay. hehe. yesterday kase my nametag says "jon". pati ang outfit namin ay formal. i wore a business attire. feel na feel ko na businesswoman ako eh. haha. anyway, the convocation was from 1-4 pm. generally, mga talks ng highly respected people sa la salle ang nagyari and some performances of the orgs. after that, there was food wating for us so we ate. un lang! some of the froshies went home na and some stayed. i stayed at DLSU for 30 minutes lang together with my batchmate nung 4th year na blockmate ko din na ngayon ko lang nakausap..hehe. kasama din namin ung nag-iisang taga-lsgh sa block namin. so there. the day was fun and yun. yehey! haha. :)

# random thougths @ 2:59 PM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

today, i was able to finally have the orientation in DLSU, my college. yeah. haha. the orientation was from 7:30 in the morning up to 5:30 in the afternoon. o diba? nakakainip un. but no. the orientation/welcome for the froshies weren’t boring. in fact, sobrang saya nya! the higher batches really prepared this event for us! welcome na welcome kami sa school eh! kahit na makasalubong lang namin sila, they talk to us and welcome us..thanks kuyas and ates.. :)

i would not tell ALL the details kung ano nangyari sa day na toh, pero definitely i would be sharing to you guys the highlights of my first taste of college life. :) i was really nervous this morning, kase i didn’t know what to expect. but i knew i was not alone, kase alam ko na lahat kami ganun ung naffeel. haha. so there. we just had the assembly at yuchengo conservatory [asus, ang ganda! really nice..even better than st.scho’s famous st. cecilia’s hall!] then we had our break. shempre all girls sa table na inupuan ko, shempre ganyan talaga ang frosh, ilang pa sa boys. haha. :) after that, we went to one classroom for us to have the getting to know activity. makikilala ko na blockmates ko dito. the activity was really fun, we had human bingo. [to those who are not familiar with this game, ito ung u have to let people sign your paper depende sa nakalagay sa isang square sa paper po. for example ang nakalagay ay, “picks nose in public”, u have to look for a person na nagppick ng nose sa public and u have to let him/her sign your paper. dapat ma-complete mo ung squares as in lahat may sign ng mga different tao for u to win. anlabo ko mag-explain..nyahaha!]. so ako naman ganado and i wanted to be part of the first three na makakatapos nung human bingo, so i approached every person in my block for them to sign my paper..and guess what?! i won! haha! :) di pa natatapos jan, shempre when sum1 signs something sa paper, dapat he has to prove na ganun talaga sha! i signed my blockmates’ paper under the description “knows how to do cartwheels” and “can split”..so i had to prove it! successfully, i was able to do the split! nabighani naman ang blockmates ko sakin! haha! nabighani din ako sa sarili ko eh! after years of not training for gymanistics ba naman tska after one year of not dancing, kala ko di ko na kaya! :) di na ko naka-cartwheel [thank god] kase we had something more important to do. so as of now, i’m remembered in my block as the “split girl”..haha. :) we also had the getting to know thing with the inner circle and the outer circle..u know what i mean. :)

after taking lunch, we had mass and after that we had the campus tour. :) medyo familiar na ko sa campus, but i think i’d still be having a hard time looking for my classrooms. haha. god guide me. hehe. after the tour, we went to the 9th floor of DLSU’s sports complex. dun kami sa basketball court nila. the whole college of business and economics was there. ansaya pag nagsama ung batch namin. we did the crowd wave thing kase ang dami namin. haha! then we had games, so saya. we were also taught na the DLSU cheers. the dance orgs and sum of the singing orgs performed din. :) i was awed dun sa pep drummers ng DLSU eh, galing! wow..tapos basta all we did sa gym nun was all fun! :)

can’t wait to go to school on monday.. :)

# random thougths @ 2:59 PM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

wahaha!Ü wla namang mgagalt eh...Ü cge mamaya kultan ult tyo! oh xia cge 2lugan na! heheÜ nytnyt jojo!Ü ;) -melmel-

haha Ü bkt san pnta mo ng 8? tumitilaok na ang mga manok d2 at mlpit na lumiwanag ang plgid pro e2 prn ako, mulat na mulat ang mga mata..haha.Ü -mensahe ni jo kay torti-

let me share to you one highlight that i had last night and this morning..from 9:30 pm to 5:30 am the next day, nakahiga lang ako sa kama. at hindi ako nakatulog. literal. haha. that was 8 hours na nakahiga pero mulat na mulat. yan ang pinakamatinding epekto sa akin ng insomnia so far. grabe. andami ko nang nakatext tapos hindi pa rin ako nakatulog. haha.

anlaking tulong sa akin ng 24/7. kung sino man nakaisip netong napakagaling na ideya, salamat po sir/ma’am. haha. pumasok ako sa kwarto ko ng 9:30 pm kase gusto ko nang sanayin ang aking sarili na matulog na nang maaga dahil sa isang linggo, papasok na ako sa kolehiyo. hindi na pwedeng madaling-araw na ang tulog ko.

ngunit walang epekto ang aking ginawa. so tinext ko ang mga kaibigan ko. nung mga panahong iyon, ang aking mga katext ay sina marco at melmel. sila din ay walang magawa. makalipas ang ilang sandali, nagsend ng quote si torti at si tantan. doon ko nalaman na gising pa sila. mga ala-una na un nang umaga. tinext ko sila. kaya apat na sila. makalipas ang ilang sandali muli, hindi na nagreply si marco. tatlo na lang ang katext ko. si melmel, si tantan at si torti. kung ano-ano ang napag-usapan naming walang kwenta. pero masaya ako. mga alas-dos ng umaga, sumuko na si tantan. matutulog na raw sha dahil may training pa daw sha sa balibol kinabukasan. ako, mulat na mulat pa rin. si melmel ay nagkkompyuter pa habang katext ako at si torti na aking dakilang seatmate at paborito ko ay nakahiga lang sa kanyang kama, nagpapaantok. habang nagttext, tinawagan ako ni melmel. susme. mas lalo akong nagising. shempre tawanan kami ng tawanan. kulitan to the max. [ay torti, nahawa tuloy ako sa mga salita mo dahil antagal nating magkatext. ahaha.] buti na lamang ay hindi ako naririnig ng mga kasamahan ko dito sa bahay na tumatawa mag-isa. pano naman ako maririnig, eh tulog na tulog na sila. ansarap kausap ni melmel. pramis. haay. kinakantahan pa ko. haha. you and me by lifehouse, melmel. hehe. anywei, makalipas ang ilang tawagan, humiga na si melmel at tumawag muli sha sa aking telepono. pagkatapos maputol, nagtext sha na matutulog na daw sha. anlakas ko talaga. alas-tres y media na at hindi pa rin ako tulog. shempre si torti, gising pa rin. kaya text to the max na naman kami. sa sobra naming walang magawa, nagawa na namin ang gawain na talaga namang ang weirdo kung iisipin. aba’y akalain mo ba namang bilangin namin ni torti kung ilan ang sun users sa klase namin at isipin kung sino-sino sa mga kaklase namin ang hindi pa naka-sun? o diba ang saya? ganyan kami kabaliw. ahaha. bandang alas-cuatro, pagkatapos sakin ikwento ni torti ang liveshow na nakita ni cha [isa pa naming klasmeyt], nagtext na sha na matutulog na sha. pipilitin na daw nyang matulog dahil may pupuntahan pa sha ng 8 nang umaga. so cge. pinakawalan ko na si torti. at eto ako, nag-iisa, walang magawa. eh usually naman pag nakahiga lang ako at walang kausap at katext, makakatulog ako. but no. isa’t kalahating oras ay nakatunganga lang ako. hinihintay dumami ang tilaok ng mga manok. ang saya ko nun. pagdating ng mga alas-singko y media ng umaga, dinapuan ako ng antok. langya. MAY ARAW NA. marami na ring mga sasakyang dumadaan sa may bahay namin. pero, natulog pa rin ako.
nag-iibang anyo na ata ako. natutulog ako pag may araw at gising na gising pag gabi.

# random thougths @ 7:36 AM

Thursday, May 12, 2005

hey guys..juz wanted to share a story that i read last night, before going to sleep. it really enlightened me and it gave me a positive outlook on life. :)

NOTHING BUT PROBLEMS
by Ken Blanchard

"The man who has no problems is out of the game." - Elbert Hubbard

on christmas eve 1993, norman vincent peale, the author of the all-time bestseller The Power of Positive Thinking, died at age 95. he was at home surrounded by love, peace and tender care. norman vincent peale deserved nothing less. his positive-thinking ministry had brought peace and renewed confidence to generations of people who realized from his sermons, speeches, radio shows, and books that we are responsible for the condition we're in. since he felt god did not make junk, norman reminded us that we have two choices every morning when we wake up: we can choose to feel good about ourselves or choose to feel lousy. i can still hear norman clearly shouting out, "why would you choose the latter?"

i first met norman in july 1986. larry hughes, who was president of my publishing company, william morrow & co., had suggested we think about writing a book together on ethics. we decided to do that, and the next two years working with norman on The Power of Ethical Management was one of the greatest delights i have ever had in my life.ever since that first meeting, norman had a great impact on my life. he always contended that positive thinkers get positive results because they are not afraid of problems. in fact, rather than thinking of a problem as something that is negative and ought to be removed as quickly as possible, norman felt problems were a sign of life. to illustrate that point, here is one of his favorite stories, one i have used frequently in my presentations:

one day i was walking down the street, when i saw my friend george approaching. it was evident from his downtrodden look that he wasn't overflowing with the ecstasy and exuberance of human existence, which is a high-class way of saying george was dragging bottom.

naturally i asked him, "how are you, george?" while that was meant to be a routine inquiry, george took me very seriously and for 15 minutes he enlightened me on how bad he felt. and the more he talked, the worse i felt.finally i said to him, "well george, i'm sorry to see you in such a depressed state. how did you get this way?" that really set him off."it's my problems," he said. "problems---nothing but problems. i'm fed up with problems. if you could get rid of all my problems, i would contribute $5,000 to your favorite charity."

well now, i am never one to turn a deaf ear to such an offer, and so i meditated, ruminated and cogitated on the proposition and came up with an answer that i thought was pretty good.

i said, "yesterday, i went to a place where thousands of people reside. as far as i could determine, not one of them has any problems. would you like to go there?"

"when can we leave? that sounds like my kind of place," answered george."

if that's the case, george," i said, "i'll be happy to take you tomorrow to Woodlawn Cemetery because the only people i know who don't have any problems are dead."

i love that story. it really puts life in perspective. i heard norman say many times, "if you have no problems at all---i warn you---you're in grave jeopardy---you're on the way out and you don't know it! if you don't believe you have any problems, i suggest that you immediately race from wherever you are, jump into your car and drive home as fast but as safely as possible, run into you house, and go straight to your bedroom and slam the door. then get on your knees and pray, 'what's the matter, lord? don't you trust me anymore? give me some problems.'"

such a nice story. wanted to share this to you guys coz as far as i know, medyo marami tayong may mga problema. and even if i couldn't help some of you and all i could do is listen, i'd like to at least make you look at your problems a second time and make yourself say, "hey, that's nice. i have problems. god trusts in me." :)

# random thougths @ 5:02 AM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

i have tortured hands. ayaw ng guitar sakin. when will i learn how to play the guitar? darn.

# random thougths @ 4:15 AM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

ok alam kong uso toh ngayon. i've seen this in gino's blog, in derick's blog and in my ate's blog. but iba ung style ng paggawa ni gino and derick ng entry nila compared to my ate and pinaka na-attract akong style is ung style ng ate ko. yehey. so now i'm gonna do mine. the jon's version. :)

i'd be talking to sum of the people i know, but the thing is keo na bahala makiramdam kung keo ung tinutukoy ko. i'm not gonna tell kung saan keo jan. I'LL NEVER TELL. nyahaha. no hard feelings, malay nyo, hindi naman pala keo ung tinutukoy. so there. i wanna let out my feelings lang. ung iba jan hindi nyo iisiping kakausapin ko. ayan clue na yan ah.

1. since u started to have problems, di na kita kilala. u were not the same person na dati kong kilala. u won't tell me anything now. i dunno what happened to you. though medyo bago palang tayong magkakilala, i don't expect to tell me many things about u. juz making me feel that i'm ur friend is enough.

2. it's a good thing that u came back for a while. that problem of yours was a blessing in disguise. i thank god for that. it made u remember me. i was kind of sad that u only remembered me when u had that problem, but i'm still thankful coz that made me feel that i'm still important to you after all that has happened to us. please tell me anything that i need to know about your feelings, it's hard to guess.

3. u're one of the persons whom i wanted to know for so long, i've been hearing nice things about u and i'm happy that i finally met u. you're so different from the people in your community, and that's a good one. u're positively unique. hope to know you more.

4. i want you to know that i really care for u and all i want is for you to be happy. other people should not be hindrances from discovering your personal legend [taken from the alchemist]. even if it means leaving and hurting other people. i'm sure they will learn to live with it.

5. you're everything that i need.

6. ugh. please stop bothering me with rumors. you've had enough enemies. time to have a new life. move on man, you've lost him years ago. stop boasting that u had him. darn.

7. someday your prince will come. and everything will be perfect. at hinding-hindi ako mawawala sa moment na un. i'll forever be a witness in every chapter in your life. mahal kita eh.

8. thanks for making me feel appreciated. kahit we're not that close compared to our other common friends, ikaw lang ang nakakagawa nito sakin. i admit that i'm scared to lose you. lalo na that we'll be in college. though nakakatampo ung iba nating friends kase parang wala lang sila pakialam sakin, i feel contented na rin kahit papaano coz ur there. i love you.

9. u're my weird friend. we don't really talk that much, but i can tell things to you that i can't tell to others. i juz feel comfortable when i share things to you, when i share what i feel. it's just because i know that i can trust u. please take care of the people that u have right now coz pangmatagalan na yang mga taong yan. believe me. thanks for being a really nice friend.

10. sometimes i can't figure u out. are you just flirting like you do to your other girls or do really like me? admit it.

nyahaha. ang saya pala gumawa nito. try nyo. :)

# random thougths @ 2:08 PM

i enrolled at DLSU-manila this morning. so now i'm an official lasallian. waaah. hehe. god please make me ready for this. i'll be going to school on may 23. aaah. and my classmates are mostly chinese boys. help me. ahahaha.

i love la salle's campus. lalo na sa mga tambayan. so windy, pedeng pede mag-emote. haha. :)

wish me luck when i go to school. :)

# random thougths @ 10:49 AM

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

haha..ok ba ang title? nwei, yesterday, i got to be introduced to LJ's relatives. since his mom, dad, sisters and brother know me na, pinakilala naman ako sa ramos clan..haha. :)

yesterday, after church, iniwan na ako ng fam ko sa church. there, LJ fetched me and we went to philam homes at west ave to attend his first pamangkin's 1st bday. his pamangkin's name was julia. such a cute kid. :) [sayang wala akong pic ni julia, di ko kase dala ung digicam that time eh, it was with my ate pa rin..hay] but before we went to philam homes' clubhouse, LJ and i went to his house muna. naka-shorts lang kase sha kaya nagpalit muna sha ng pants. hehe. there i met na cousin mike [that's what i call him, he's LJ's cousin], kuya mark [cousin din] and kuya mark's gf ata..not sure..hehe. sori na. tapos nandun din ung mom and dad ni dyorj, they were getting ready for julia's party.

after that, we went straight to philam homes na. julia's party's theme was dora the explorer. ang cute. hehe. she was wearing dora's clothes, pati ung backpack kopyang-kopya eh. hehe. :) tapos her kid guests were instructed to wear animal costumes. kaya mukhang zoo ung venue nun. haha. joke lang. so there were full of cute kids in animal costumes. :) before the party started, ayun, pinakilala ako ni LJ sa mga relatives nya. his relatives were nice naman, lagi naka-smile ung mga tao sakin. hehe. when the party started, there were games, tapos kainan tapos magic show. i liked the magic show the most. haha. enjoy kase pag may magic show. :) bata pa rin naman ako, kahit na sweet seventeen na ko. :) julia's parents, ate chel [LJ's ate] and kuya manuel were very supportive kay julia. ang cute nila tignan and kitang-kita na they love each other so much. :) i just hope magkaron ako ng family na katulad nila. :)

after the party, before we went home, there were more pakilalas. hehe. pinakilala ako sa mga iba pang tito and tita, ninangs and ninongs, and lolos and lolas. ang bait nila. tapos before ako ihatid sa house, dumaan muna kami sa house nila ulit para ma-unload ung mga nilagay sa car ni LJ na ginamit sa party then after that hinatid na ko sa house. :)

LJ stayed for a while pa pag dating namin sa house ko kase chinika pa ni mom. nanood din pa kase sha ng volleyball game sa tv, benta kase sa kanya. haha. so there. we ate ng konti, tapos tapos na! the day ends there. hehe. enjoy ung day na toh. yipee. :)

# random thougths @ 5:43 AM

ang tinake home ko na baboy sa bday ni julia :)

# random thougths @ 5:42 AM

if u have read my previous entry, u know that it's a horrible one. imagine, birthday mo, malungkot? pero this time, ikkwento ko naman ang extended bday celebration ko. :) my mom gave me her time this time. :) thanks mom.

nung morning ng april 30, saturday, wala naman kami mashadong ginawa. i just had bonding time with my bestfriend rach. ang bonding time namin ay taking personality tests sa internet. haha. ang kulit. there we discovered our differences and similarities. kahit sa ganun lang i had fun. my dad naman wasn't home coz he had an emergency staff meeting sa office. my mom on the other hand, treated herself. nagpa-hair spa sha kaya ayun.

when afternoon came, dumating na ung dad ko. my mom was sleeping naman. my extended bday celebration started nung nagyaya ako ng swimming sa isang village here sa pque. i told them that i wanted to swim badly kase ang init talaga tska walang magawa sa house. my dad and mom said yes naman, so natuwa naman ako. so we went na to levitown and had swimming there. kasama ko magswim were my brother, his friend and my bestfriend. we had so much fun kase kami lang ung nagsswim. it was like private ung pool. :) dumating kami dun ng 5:30 pm and i finished swimming at around 8:30 pm. 3 hours if swimming? not bad. tapos natuwa pa ko kase inaasikaso kase kami talaga ng parents namin. they left us sa levitown for a while to go to sm bicutan to buy us food. so we had our dinner there na. ayun. wala lang. share ko lang. nyahaha. :) happy na ko sa ganun. :) too bad we didn't have pictures, my sister brought the digicam kase. grrr. :)

# random thougths @ 5:17 AM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

honestly, i'm way too lazy to put another entry here in my blogsite. but since i'm a life blogger [i took a test about what kind of blogger i am, life blogger daw ako], which means that what i usually put on my blog daw are things that are happening in my life, i'd try to be one with that quiz result. haha.

well, i think everybody who reads my blog know that i celebrated my 17th birthday yesterday. seventeen. SEVENTEEN. isn't that a sweet word? ang cute. sweet seventeen. oh heck, i juz don't want to remove the "sweet" word from my age. kaya kahit 82 na ko, sweet pa rin ako. beh. :) i would like to thank the people who greeted me, advanced man or late na. it's the thought that counts nga, diba? thanks so much, u made me happy kahit papaano on that day..read on, you'll know why.

april 28, the day before my bday, my friends were already telling me "17 ka na! 17 ka na! matanda na!" as if they were more excited than i was. for a reason i didn't know, up to now, i wasn't a bit excited that my bday was already on the next day. ewan ko. o basta ayun.

starting 12:01 am up to 11:59 pm of april 29, people kept on texting greetings. napasaya nyo ko kase my birthday wasn't that happy. sure i was happy, pero may kulang..

i woke up that morning. when i stepped out of my room, my mom and dad were gone. they've gone to work, without even greeting me happy birthday. nagtampo ako nun coz my mom usually checks on me every morning, but this time, she didn't. dunno why. anyway, so there i was. my sister was in her room, my brother was playing computer games and our maid was watching tv. di nila ko pinansin nung lumabas ako ng kwarto. how painful was that? mga kasama ko sa bahay di naalala na it was my special day. sila pang buong buhay ko nang nakasama. nagtampo lang ako kase mas naalala pa ng friends ko..kayo nga, yung mga nag-greet. thanks, really..so di lang ako umimik..walang breakfast, so i watched tv instead. when i turned the tv on, whapaak! walang cable. ewan ko kung bakit. ang mapapanood mo lang sa lahat ng channels ay yung black and white na parang langgam at mga anay na gumagalaw at tumira sa loob ng tv nyo. alam nyo na tinutukoy ko diba? so ako mas nabadtrip diba? ansaya ng bertdey ko, pati ang cable nang-asar. so ang ginawa ko ay nanood nalang ako ng dvd kase wala talagang magawa. ganda ng umaga ko. when i was at the middle of the movie, i stopped it na kase hindi rin naman ako concentrated sa pinapanood ko. i called up LJ instead para maglabas ng sama ng loob. good thing he's always available for me. so un na nga, he told me he was planning to go to my house daw kaso lang my mom didn't reply when he texted her. so ako naman "ok lang po, at least u tried.." i was suuuuper sad. i can't talk to my bestfriend rach pa coz she was having her stage play rehearsals..i tried to sleep nalang ulit, kaso all those sad thoughts kept me awake. so tunganga lang ako. napaka-happy ng bertdey. haha. after my brother, i used the pc na. after lunch na toh. i was waiting for the pc to connect to the internet, and while i was doing that, i was texting a friend. it was then i heard our doorbell. i thought it was my mom, kala ko nag-half day para sakin. but no. though i haven't seen the person who doorbelled, i knew it wasn't my mom. basta may sign ako kung si mom un or not. so i thought it was our maid's sister. kase tahimik eh. i continued my texting, when suddenly a guy shouted and tickled me from my back. immediately i recognized the voice. THE VOICE THAT I WISHED TO HEAR PERSONALLY ON MY BIRTHDAY. it was LJ. i was really really happy to see him..after a few seconds, another familiar voice was heard. the same comforting, cheerful voice i always hear every sunday..it was my bestfriend! she was holding a cake with candles in which i needed to blow. so ako naman shocked, kase i wasn't expecting them! ang cute..it was really sweet of them..aaah..wanna cry..haha. joke. :) lalo na sa bestfriend ko, i know kase na she's very busy sa rehearsals nya sa stage play, but still she managed to arrange this surprise..aaww..I LOVE YOU GUYS.. :) so i was happy na the whole afternoon, coz i got to spend it with rachel and LJ..my bestbestBEST friends in the whole world..aahh i really love you guys.. :) bonus pa pala, after LJ and rach arrived, tortor my seatmate and jessica my girlet arrived pa. LJ talked to both of them the night before my bday and managed to invite them kahit last minute na. kaya i love this guy so much eh. hehe. galing dumiskarte. :)

though bumalik ang sadness ko nung gabi, kase nagtampo na naman ako..sa mom ko..sori na kung drama ko sa mom ko, it was juz that she was the one i expected na talagang maggreet sakin. so there. my parents arrived from work na. na-touch ako sa dad ko, kase i saw na he really wanted to greet me nung morning but didn't have the chance. he told me agad "eh anak tulog ka pa nung umalis ako eh, di tuloy kita na-greet." sabay greet ng happy birthday. my mom on the other hand, didn't greet me pa rin. sabe lang nya "o? umuwi na ung dalawang visitors mo?" she was referring to tor and jessica. so i just answered yes. akala ko i'd be spending time na with both my parents, but no. may two tennis friends kase si mom who were celebrating their bday din. sabay ng bday ko. there was a celebration sa tennis court so dun sha pumunta. buong gabi dun lang sha sa labas, with her friends. parang she didn't even bother to think na her daughter's celebrating her bday too..but, ano ba naman laban ko sa dalawa diba? so hinayaan ko nalang. ang makulit pa dun, she was wrapping the present for her friend at ako pa ang pinapunta nya sa tindahan para sa birthday gift wrapper na gagamitin nya pambalot ng gift. nung una humirit pa ko na "wow, nice bag! akin ba ung gift na yan? bakit ibabalot nyo pa?" but she didn't answer. if u're wondering, i didn't receive any gift from her. ok? haha. hanggang makatulog na ko. actually di pa ko nakatulog kagad eh, i called up LJ pa. inayakan ko lang. sori na, madrama talaga. i just felt different that night, i felt really bad. REALLY REALLY BAD. so ayun pag gising ko the next day, maga ang mata ko. yehey.

sorry sa entry ko ha, i juz let out my feelings. mahirap na ung sasabog nalang bigla. hehe. to those who have read this, don't think na i look at my mom negatively. no. i don't intend to put her down by doing this entry. i love my mom. i love her so much. to my mom [if ever she'd be reading this..but i wish she wouldn't..kaya kayong mga may kakilala kay mom, DON'T TELL HER ABOUT THIS ENTRY], i really felt bad that day. honestly, i was angry at you. but i can't stay angry for a long time, so i'd be letting this feeling go. i forgive you mom. i love you..

# random thougths @ 2:55 PM