friends, let us pray for the soul of lj's dad and strength for his family, especially strength ng mom niya.

lj's dad passed away last august 28, 2006 ng 5:05 pm. reason daw is heart attack though none of them saw him na inatake siya. it's just because his dad has heart problems na daw and maybe that's what the doctor said, na heart attack nga daw. what's sad is, unexpected kasi yung nangyari. no one in lj's family had the chance to talk to their dad minutes before he died. lj was in school pa nung nangyari. tinawagan na lang siya that's why he knew of the news.

before that happened, magkausap pa kami ni lj sa cell kasi we're supposed to meet each other sa gabi. i called him up ng mga 430 or 445 tapos happy happy pa siya telling me kung nasan na siya and all. then someone call waited sa kanya. i waited for a long time tapos sa tagal na-cancel na yung call naming dalawa. i called again to ask what happened bakit naputol. then he told me "si dad inatake, nasa heart center ngayon" so ako naman na-shock. i was thinking shempre di na matutuloy lakad namin sa gabi. i let 10 minutes pass muna before i called him up again. baka kasi kumakausap pa siya ng family member. then i called again. he said "wala na daw si dad" shoot mas lalo akong na-shock nun! i was thinking if susunod ba ko. after much deliberation, i decided to go. kasi lj needs me more than ever. i mean, he has always been there for me, time ko naman para bumawi.

when i reached their house, he was there sa labas waiting for me. paglapit ko sa kanya, there were no words, hug lang kagad. i felt his pain as i hugged him. after ilang seconds, he just said "wala na si dad.." sa sobrang wala naman akong masabe kasi kahit sakin di pa nagssink-in na wala na talaga si tito, nasabe ko na lang "ok lang yan, ganyan talaga.."

after that, we went inside their house na, there were many people, i guess mostly relatives and neighbors. i approached his mom and greeted her, then kissed her. her mom and i aren't close, takot nga ako sa mom niya eh. hehe. but at that moment, i felt a connection. i mean, sabi ni lj natural na suplada lang talaga mom niya but when i kissed her mom, she held my hand and she squeezed it. grabe mas lalo kong na-feel yung pain sa mom niya.

i spent the time with lj and his family from 9 pm to 4 pm the next day, di ako makaalis kasi parang as much as possible, i wanted to give support sa kanila, and i really really wanted to share what god wants to give his family, his plans and his will for them. god is so good that i had the opportunity to open that up kahit kay lj lang. when we saw his dad, lj told me that "bakit ganon? ang bata pa ni dad. magffifty-five pa lang siya. unexpected sobra eh. iniisip ko pa nga na makikita pa niya ko mag-graduate, at ikasal at magka-anak." he also told me that the night before he died daw, the doctors who offered a scholarship kay lj were in their house daw, talking with lj's parents. then his dad told the doctors that they're so proud to have an intelligent son like lj. tapos biglang the next day mawawala na dad niya. kaya naman when his dad died, lj told me na sobrang nanghihinayang daw siya kasi daw "profession" niya ay nursing and he'll be a doctor someday pero wala daw siyang nagawa. and nahihirapan siyang isipin that his dad struggled for his life but there was no one to help him. i just told him that he wasn't there naman when it happened, in fact no one saw him. and he wasn't a doctor or nurse yet. in the future he can save as many lives as he can. i'm sure his dad will be proud of his son. he might not save his own dad's life, pero he could save another dad's life. that moment i knew that god gave me the wisdom and right words to tell lj para ma-comfort siya. i told him that wag siyang manghihinayang kasi god has a purpose for letting this thing happen. we might not understand what his purpose is, we might even think na unfair yung nangyari, but god has a greater plan, one that we cannot comprehend but when his plan is completed, it would be just as grand as we ever thought it would be. it could even be greater.

i have never felt what it's like to lose a dad or a family member. kaya it was kind of hard for me to give comfort to lj, lalo na he has experienced more things compared sa akin. but by god's grace, he was able to help me give wisdom and strength para makausap si lj in a way that can comfort him.

i would be going back sa kanila later mayang gabi, and i really pray that his mom and his family are better now.

tito rainier, you've been a good husband to tita mel and a good dad to ate manay, ate shel, ate tata, tj and lj. i pray that even if you're gone, the legacy you left your family would remain so that in whatever they do, their acts would be to make them closer as a family and would make you even more proud. goodbye tito and god welcomes you now to his kingdom. :)

Saturday, August 26, 2006

manners please!

binagsakan ako ng telepono ng isang madre.

oo, isang madre. she's sr. _ _ _ _ _, MACE. my relstri teacher. ugh. long story, but in short, ching and i are in danger in her subject. she called me up just a few hours ago and asked me about my community service, the requirements i submitted, etc. etc. and so i did. then she told me that in her record, ching and i failed daw because of that community service. then i explained again. blah blah blah. and then there was sir moi. si sir moi he's the person in charge with our community service records and he's supposed to coordinate (PROPERLY!) with sr. _ _ _ _ _ MACE about our community service. problem is, he forgot about the day that ching and i talked to him regarding our requirements in community service. tapos binigay niya kay sister FAILED?! then ching and i are the ones suffering now dahil sa kapabayaan niya? grr eh we did our job na nga eh. tapos kamusta naman ako pa yung napagalitan kasi sister had my landline tapos long distance yung kay ching kaya ayaw niya tawagan.

then sister told me that she only got the record today but sir moi already submitted it to her office YESTERDAY pa. tapos ngayon lang manggagambala si sister pinky? as in she called me 8:30 pm na duh kamusta pano kaya yun malamang pag tumawag ako sa outreach office sa school wala nang tao nun lalo na saturday ngayon! eh kung kinuha kaya ni sister yung record yesterday? so sana she was still able to check it then matatawagan pa niya kami regarding the matter and friday yun, school day so may TAO SA OUTREACH OFFICE.

now i don't know what to do kasi sister wants us to arrange this issue by tonight or tomorrow (ata) but i know that she wants it fixed by TONIGHT. pano naman yun sunday bukas mas lalong walang tao sa la salle!!! kasi she's going to zamboanga na daw tomorrow ata and she's fixing our grades na. eh sha rin pala crammer eh. so mga fellow students, pati ang teachers nagccram! eeeh ching and i still have to find sir moi's cell # at hagilap ako ng hagilap kanina pa wala ako mapagkunan!! i already called la salle na rin and asked "do you have contact numbers of all employees working in la salle?" oh diba parang terorista ang dating humihingi ng info kahit di ako kilala nung kausap ko? hay! i'm just so desperate!! i don't want to fail just because may nakakalimot gumawa ng job niya noh!! aahh!!!

going back to sr. _ _ _ _ _, MACE, i was explaining my side and i kept on telling her that "sister we have the paper that the outreach office gave us to prove that we did submit the requirements." then she told me "why didn't you follow up with sir moi that blah blah blah" (my mind was getting blurry dahil kinakabahan na naiinis na ko) then i told her "he told us that we give the donations to tita emma and HE WILL BE THE ONE TO CHECK AND FOLLOW UP IF WE REALLY DID GIVE DONATIONS." pero sige pa rin si sister at galit na siya take note. then she said "you know what? you're delaying me blah blah blah when i get back from zamboanga i still have to adjust your grades if ever you really did give donations chuva blah blah" so parang ako ayoko na ulitin yung sinabe ko sa kanya so i just said "we're now looking for sir moi's number sister" tska "sorry sister." after that sorry, WHAPACK! binagsakan ako!

yun na! di ko na na-take yun nagalit na ko. sobrang gusto ko na siya sugurin sa bahay niya kanina at ipakita sa kanya ang papel na proof na ginawa namin ang dapat naming gawin! alam mo yun inapakan niya dignidad ko eh, she didn't take into consideration my side? di naman namin kasalanan ni ching na one guy forgot to check what he had to check noh. i'm sorry for this but i lost respect na with that prof of mine dahil dun sa ginawa niya. bagsakan ka ba naman ng telepono noh. i mean, she teaches CHRISTIAN MORALITY but she can't even practice it? pano naman yun diba? sige, tao lang siya at nagkakamali but i was just hurt that of all the people who can do that to me, madre pa, the one who you least expect to do that thing to you. grabe. magulo na mundo ko hanggang maayos ko 'to. i don't want to flunk relstri noh. please lang. ugh.

# random thougths @ 11:05 PM

how to fold a t-shirt

amazing!!

# random thougths @ 7:36 PM

Friday, August 25, 2006

labas tayo?

bored na ko dito sa bahay grabe..i want to go out!! yayain niyo ko dali sasama ako. :D yung click mawawala na yun di ko pa rin napapanood! i also want little man and my super ex-girlfriend! waah! how i wish i have lots of money!! i want auntie anne's..tska avenetto seafood nut pesto..and big apple pizza..huhuhu. blockmates let's go out!

hey, i have new pics on my multiply. click these letters :D

# random thougths @ 5:03 PM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

pressure's on me

oh shucks. tomorrow is my last day before sem break. hell day din tomorrow. :( i'll be having my accounting finals and economics finals. no prob sa economics, but accounting? i have to get an 81% to pass the subject. :( waah. and because i overslept during the loooong weekend, (saturday to tuesday), i'm now cramming for my business case and folder to be submitted tomorrow din. waaah. please pray for me, for wisdom and strength. i badly need packs of extra joss right now, kasi walang tulugan 'to but too bad we don't have any here. so i guess i just have to settle with cups of coffee, which for your info, are not comparable with the effects given to me by extra joss. so swertehan na lang kung di ako makatulog tonight. X) haaay just pray for me friends, will ya? thanks thanks. :)

# random thougths @ 7:59 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

turn around

from this..

to this..


partida that is not my best shot pa, i'm made up sa unang pic eh. wahaha. dinefend daw ba ang sarili. at least jOn finally went out of her box and finally had the courage to make drastic changes such as that one above. many people loved the hair, some were so shocked. bahala kayo basta ako i'm handling the change well though there are bad hair days. and i know many more will come my way. bwahehe. so just be happy! *here's to being open to changes!*

HAPPY 19TH BDAY JUS AND 21ST BDAY TJ! :D

# random thougths @ 2:22 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

the rest is history

OW EM GEE.

NAMISS KO MAGBLOG!!! sobra talaga! parang naulila ako ng ilang araw dahil di ko nakakausap si bloggie..hehe! but now, i have time for her! yipee :D though i would have MORE time after wednesday pa, kasi i still have final exams next week, then sembreak na! yay :)

i haven't watched click yet hindi maaari inaabang-abangan ko pa naman yun! diz iz it kailangan mapanood ko yun!

grabe. wala ako makwento kasi parang damidami nang nangyari sakin that i can't recall all of 'em. hehe. so next time. bigla ako nahilo grabe. *_*

oh yeah, feefol i passed the DO paragons ____! di ko lam tawag eh. basta ganap na discipline officer na ko effective next term! whoo. and, sa 1st batch of accepted applicants pa ko, at by rank sha, and i am no.2 in the list! whoo whoo. thank you my father, you really know when to say yes. :)

# random thougths @ 7:15 PM

Friday, August 04, 2006

nasisiraan

bop bop bop..wala ako magawa. break ko ngayon. hehehe. :D

# random thougths @ 9:33 AM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

eksayted

ang dami kong dreams sa life. sobra. kamusta naman tapos gusto ko pa lahat yun magagawa ko. excited ako kasi alam kong kaya ko siya, di ko lang matiyempuhan. katulad na lang ng mga short-term dreams ko:

1. mag-discipline officer (better known as DO paragon) sa DLSU. --> by next week malalaman ko na kung magkakatotoo 'to. pagpray niyo ko sana matanggap ako. hehe.

2. i want to run for student council. una kong ipaglalaban ay ang maling sistema sa priority and non-priority enrollment. pag bumagsak ka, dapat may chance ka pang maging prio ulit provided that when you take your failed subject again, you get a grade of 2.5 or higher than that. hindi yung dress code or attendance policy yung laging issue, minority lang naman ang apektado dun. i believe mas maraming matutuwa kung enrollment policy ang minumove. nakikita ko na ang pamumulitika sa DLSU.

3. gusto ko sumali sa LSDC (la salle dance company). mahal ko na ang jazz, kahit di ko pa siya nasasayaw talaga. cheerdance and cultural dance pa lang ako eh. pero yung moves ng jazz okey sa olrayt talaga sakin, as in feeling ko magniningning ako pag sumayaw ako nun. hahaha ang yabang. miss ko na sumayaw eh.

4. harlequinn theater guild. sosyal ng pangalan! gusto ko rin diyan, aacting ako (uy may acting skills din ako pero grade 6 pa huling nagamit bwahaha)! natutuwa ako pag nanonood ako ng mga theater plays, tapos lagi ko naiimagine na ako yung umaarte sa stage. exciting :)

5. to lead the upcoming dance ministry sa church, together with jv. nabalitaan ko marami daw nagsign-up from our sister churches, and ang saya naman. sana matuloy na yung first ever performance namin sa next youth worship, this last sunday of august. yeees.

6. maging print ad or ramp model. yes yes. vtr na lang talaga eh. na-prove ko na sa sarili ko na, cge na, i have what it takes naman. nahihiya kasi ako if i just suddenly barge in an agency's office at sabihing "magv-vtr po ako" wahaha. so ayun may lumapit na sakin so kulang na lang ay tulakin ko na sarili ko pumunta sa makati!

7. maging LAmb (lasallian ambassador). eto yung parang welcoming committee ng university pag may incoming freshmen. sila yung mga unang makikilala ng freshmen kasi as early as orientation which is the week before regular classes, kasama na nila ang new babies of la salle. gusto ko yung ate/kuya factor eh. hehe. pag naging DO paragon ako, medyo wish come true na rin 'to. hay nako love for service nga naman oh.

8. maka-experience na ng hands-on sa business management as early as now. para may mapagpractisan na. so moma and dadi, bilin na yung sweet escape! mag-franchise na rin ng holy kettle corn! hehe.

aim high pasay ang dating ko dito! pero ok naman mangarap noh? hehe. reachable naman 'tong mga 'to eh, so exciting kasi sobrang challenged talaga ko ngayon :)

# random thougths @ 11:26 PM

alter ego taking over toot toot toot

i love me yeah yeah yeah.. :)

i have a new haircut! again. whee. and mind you, this cut's a drastic one. as in grabe pati ako nabigla na kaya ko pala i-keri ang ganitong cut! bwahaha. miraculous talaga ang salvo salon and of course, my hair gurus, pat and ate joy na nagawa nila akong maging mas daring pagdating sa aking hurr! so my cut's now anime-like na parang emo na ewan! bwahaha imaginin niyo na lang si joanne marie hernandez emo ang buhok?! bwahaha. ang kulit ng ate ko andami na niyang sinabe na kamukha ko dahil sa hair ko hahaha. i can't remember yung mga names, except for amelie, sa sound of music daw. so eto siya:

whapaaack!

konting edit lang, pahabain ng KONTI na tipong yung bangs natatakpan yung eyebrows tapos yung length hanggang sa neck, na korean style medyo, ayus! joanne na joanne na! hahaha. :D sabe ng ate ko si sophie neveu daw 'to. astig hehe. wala pa ko photo sa pc kasi di ko mahanap yung digicam kaya sub muna si amelie para lang may idea kayo kung ano na itsura ko! hahaha.

gusto ko talaga mag-double degree course! now na!

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DAN SEGUNIAL! :D

# random thougths @ 10:26 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

101

marami akong significant learnings this week. even if tuesday pa lang. :D

(disclaimer: some things written on this entry are for entertainment purposes only. kahit ako hindi ko sure kung totoo lahat nang ito. hehe. except yung kuyakoy and kuyakot, totoo yan.)

SUICIDE - this is a kind of drink na pinaghalo-halong coke, orange, sprite and rootbeer. in fairness, ang sarap niya. so there. suicide. so pag nag-order ka, "waiter, gusto ko ng suicide!" hehehe.

KUYAKOY - this is where when you sit on a rather high bench/chair, yung swinging action ng legs mo. in order to be called "nagkukuyakoy", both legs should be swinging simultaneously.

KUYAKOT - same as the one above, except that your legs are swinging alternately.

APIPAX - makating balat sa gitna ng mga daliri sa paa. yaaak. haha.

HIMBO - hiningang imburnal. hehehe.

HOPLAKS - pala-tae, walang ginawa kundi umebak

HUMAL - nahihirapan magsalita (dahil sa sipon)



anyway..hehe. pero serious na. i like these quotes. let us learn from them.

"mistakes make you think. they make you realize what you had. what you've lost. and what you've taken for granted. they make you realize that sometimes there are no next times, no timeouts, and no second chances.."

"a person who truly loves you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else still believes the smile on your face."

"sometimes, your pride tells you that you can't --- you won't --- wait. but in reality, you're waiting. you're hoping that the universe will fall into place and that person will come back to you. it doesn't mean you're stupid. it means you have hope. and that you truly loved. if what you hoped for didn't happen, it wasn't for you. don't lose hope. when you lose hope, you lose faith. and when you lose faith..everything else will crumble."

"notice how god opens millions of flowers everyday without forcing the buds. don't try to force anything. let life be a constant letting go and letting god. in his time, he will make everything beautiful."

enrollment time. :D

# random thougths @ 8:43 AM