i think it's time to change into a new skin.

changes in life. difficult decisions. people saying hi's and goodbyes. thanking god for THOSE moments. stumbling and falling. alone time. sleepless nights. heart to heart talks. having a shoulder to cry on. people who love you so much. running under the rain with that person. loneliness. confusion. gratitude.

my life (and everyone's as well) is a series of ups and downs, lots of things are happening to me right now that sometimes i just wish that all of them just leave me. that i live my OWN life. the way i want it to. carefree, free from commitments and responsibilities. i admit, most of the time i don't want to be anything or anyone anymore. i'm tired of being a friend. someone who just have to listen to other people's problems and complaints. i have my own problems already, thankyouverymuch. i am tired of being a daughter. a daughter who needs to study very well, follow her parents and should try as much as she can not to let her family down. i am tired. yes, i am. but still, i live. i try to keep my sanity not just because i have to, but i WANT to. life may offer so much pain, but this pain is the very thing which teaches us to continue on and be a stronger person. besides, i don't get my strength from myself, but from someone up there who knows my limits, someone who would never give me pain which i couldn't bear. it's such a comfort to know that we don't have to live and direct our own lives, because if that happens, i guess love, gratitude, happiness, and all those other stuff wouldn't be existing in our world.

it doesn't matter how many times you fall, but what matters most is how many times you get up and go back to him. that we learn to trust him. to not be scared. to just live our lives every single day, with the thought whatever happens, somebody will be there engraved in our minds.

i want to cry, shout, and dance. i know you won't care.

because with you, I CAN BE ME.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

happiness on the go =)

ewan ko. i can't help but smile. :) parang kahit my grades in school aren't so good this term, i still have this inner peace within me. that everything will be alright. that everything is with someone's hands. that no matter what happens to me, i will still have a great life, greater than i have ever thought of. :)

ang saya pala pag lagi ka masaya, problems can't even bring me down. kahit may mga problems akong naiisip, all those problems are easily replaced by happy thoughts. masaya mag-isip ng masasayang bagay. :)

there are so many things which make me happy, one of them is my SBC family. nakakahawa ang ka-hyperan! hehe. we attended rovy's debut last nov.12 (sunday) at jade valley sa timog. hanep talaga basta may camera psyched up lahat!

kaguluhan!

with the debutante rovy ^_^

ganyan na suot ko kasi we danced king of majesty. wala pa akong pic na naka-dress. hanap pa ko from other friends. :)

my friend's cellphone was lost just today. :( wawa. natataranta talaga sha eh. hay. marami talagang masasamang loob sa mundo. but we know that god will take care of them. kaya smile na lang tayo :)

# random thougths @ 9:42 PM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

OOOOOOOO.AAAAAAA!!!!!

hellooow!! i'm in the scene again! haha. anlabo lang much has happened, most of them were blog-worthy but i haven't had the time (or motivation hehe) to put 'em all here. at medyo lang, pansin ko ang lungkot naman ng last post ko! hehe. :) but nah, i'm happy now.. ;)

favorite ko na mga nangyari sakin were: (1) my wham date with ate normi na natuloy rin FINALLY! and (2) my DOP traning at caliraya, laguna. :) both gimmicks were so so so fun, and they made me closer to people i weren't close with before mangyari to. ang saya saya sayaaaaaa sobra. =) mahal na mahal ko na ang discipline office :D

i (or my friends and the DO) have photos taken from caliraya, i'll post them in my multiply as soon as i have them. excitiiiing raming pics yun =)

yun lang. i'll be starting to update my blog ulit regularly, sana magawa ko. =)

advance enrollee on the go!! haha. exciting, sa monday na enrollment =D

# random thougths @ 7:19 PM