friends, let us pray for the soul of lj's dad and strength for his family, especially strength ng mom niya.
lj's dad passed away last august 28, 2006 ng 5:05 pm. reason daw is heart attack though none of them saw him na inatake siya. it's just because his dad has heart problems na daw and maybe that's what the doctor said, na heart attack nga daw. what's sad is, unexpected kasi yung nangyari. no one in lj's family had the chance to talk to their dad minutes before he died. lj was in school pa nung nangyari. tinawagan na lang siya that's why he knew of the news.
before that happened, magkausap pa kami ni lj sa cell kasi we're supposed to meet each other sa gabi. i called him up ng mga 430 or 445 tapos happy happy pa siya telling me kung nasan na siya and all. then someone call waited sa kanya. i waited for a long time tapos sa tagal na-cancel na yung call naming dalawa. i called again to ask what happened bakit naputol. then he told me "si dad inatake, nasa heart center ngayon" so ako naman na-shock. i was thinking shempre di na matutuloy lakad namin sa gabi. i let 10 minutes pass muna before i called him up again. baka kasi kumakausap pa siya ng family member. then i called again. he said "wala na daw si dad" shoot mas lalo akong na-shock nun! i was thinking if susunod ba ko. after much deliberation, i decided to go. kasi lj needs me more than ever. i mean, he has always been there for me, time ko naman para bumawi.
when i reached their house, he was there sa labas waiting for me. paglapit ko sa kanya, there were no words, hug lang kagad. i felt his pain as i hugged him. after ilang seconds, he just said "wala na si dad.." sa sobrang wala naman akong masabe kasi kahit sakin di pa nagssink-in na wala na talaga si tito, nasabe ko na lang "ok lang yan, ganyan talaga.."
after that, we went inside their house na, there were many people, i guess mostly relatives and neighbors. i approached his mom and greeted her, then kissed her. her mom and i aren't close, takot nga ako sa mom niya eh. hehe. but at that moment, i felt a connection. i mean, sabi ni lj natural na suplada lang talaga mom niya but when i kissed her mom, she held my hand and she squeezed it. grabe mas lalo kong na-feel yung pain sa mom niya.
i spent the time with lj and his family from 9 pm to 4 pm the next day, di ako makaalis kasi parang as much as possible, i wanted to give support sa kanila, and i really really wanted to share what god wants to give his family, his plans and his will for them. god is so good that i had the opportunity to open that up kahit kay lj lang. when we saw his dad, lj told me that "bakit ganon? ang bata pa ni dad. magffifty-five pa lang siya. unexpected sobra eh. iniisip ko pa nga na makikita pa niya ko mag-graduate, at ikasal at magka-anak." he also told me that the night before he died daw, the doctors who offered a scholarship kay lj were in their house daw, talking with lj's parents. then his dad told the doctors that they're so proud to have an intelligent son like lj. tapos biglang the next day mawawala na dad niya. kaya naman when his dad died, lj told me na sobrang nanghihinayang daw siya kasi daw "profession" niya ay nursing and he'll be a doctor someday pero wala daw siyang nagawa. and nahihirapan siyang isipin that his dad struggled for his life but there was no one to help him. i just told him that he wasn't there naman when it happened, in fact no one saw him. and he wasn't a doctor or nurse yet. in the future he can save as many lives as he can. i'm sure his dad will be proud of his son. he might not save his own dad's life, pero he could save another dad's life. that moment i knew that god gave me the wisdom and right words to tell lj para ma-comfort siya. i told him that wag siyang manghihinayang kasi god has a purpose for letting this thing happen. we might not understand what his purpose is, we might even think na unfair yung nangyari, but god has a greater plan, one that we cannot comprehend but when his plan is completed, it would be just as grand as we ever thought it would be. it could even be greater.
i have never felt what it's like to lose a dad or a family member. kaya it was kind of hard for me to give comfort to lj, lalo na he has experienced more things compared sa akin. but by god's grace, he was able to help me give wisdom and strength para makausap si lj in a way that can comfort him.
i would be going back sa kanila later mayang gabi, and i really pray that his mom and his family are better now.
tito rainier, you've been a good husband to tita mel and a good dad to ate manay, ate shel, ate tata, tj and lj. i pray that even if you're gone, the legacy you left your family would remain so that in whatever they do, their acts would be to make them closer as a family and would make you even more proud. goodbye tito and god welcomes you now to his kingdom. :)
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10:15 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
binagsakan ako ng telepono ng isang madre.
oo, isang madre. she's sr. _ _ _ _ _, MACE. my relstri teacher. ugh. long story, but in short, ching and i are in danger in her subject. she called me up just a few hours ago and asked me about my community service, the requirements i submitted, etc. etc. and so i did. then she told me that in her record, ching and i failed daw because of that community service. then i explained again. blah blah blah. and then there was sir moi. si sir moi he's the person in charge with our community service records and he's supposed to coordinate (PROPERLY!) with sr. _ _ _ _ _ MACE about our community service. problem is, he forgot about the day that ching and i talked to him regarding our requirements in community service. tapos binigay niya kay sister FAILED?! then ching and i are the ones suffering now dahil sa kapabayaan niya? grr eh we did our job na nga eh. tapos kamusta naman ako pa yung napagalitan kasi sister had my landline tapos long distance yung kay ching kaya ayaw niya tawagan.
then sister told me that she only got the record today but sir moi already submitted it to her office YESTERDAY pa. tapos ngayon lang manggagambala si sister pinky? as in she called me 8:30 pm na duh kamusta pano kaya yun malamang pag tumawag ako sa outreach office sa school wala nang tao nun lalo na saturday ngayon! eh kung kinuha kaya ni sister yung record yesterday? so sana she was still able to check it then matatawagan pa niya kami regarding the matter and friday yun, school day so may TAO SA OUTREACH OFFICE.
now i don't know what to do kasi sister wants us to arrange this issue by tonight or tomorrow (ata) but i know that she wants it fixed by TONIGHT. pano naman yun sunday bukas mas lalong walang tao sa la salle!!! kasi she's going to zamboanga na daw tomorrow ata and she's fixing our grades na. eh sha rin pala crammer eh. so mga fellow students, pati ang teachers nagccram! eeeh ching and i still have to find sir moi's cell # at hagilap ako ng hagilap kanina pa wala ako mapagkunan!! i already called la salle na rin and asked "do you have contact numbers of all employees working in la salle?" oh diba parang terorista ang dating humihingi ng info kahit di ako kilala nung kausap ko? hay! i'm just so desperate!! i don't want to fail just because may nakakalimot gumawa ng job niya noh!! aahh!!!
going back to sr. _ _ _ _ _, MACE, i was explaining my side and i kept on telling her that "sister we have the paper that the outreach office gave us to prove that we did submit the requirements." then she told me "why didn't you follow up with sir moi that blah blah blah" (my mind was getting blurry dahil kinakabahan na naiinis na ko) then i told her "he told us that we give the donations to tita emma and HE WILL BE THE ONE TO CHECK AND FOLLOW UP IF WE REALLY DID GIVE DONATIONS." pero sige pa rin si sister at galit na siya take note. then she said "you know what? you're delaying me blah blah blah when i get back from zamboanga i still have to adjust your grades if ever you really did give donations chuva blah blah" so parang ako ayoko na ulitin yung sinabe ko sa kanya so i just said "we're now looking for sir moi's number sister" tska "sorry sister." after that sorry, WHAPACK! binagsakan ako!
yun na! di ko na na-take yun nagalit na ko. sobrang gusto ko na siya sugurin sa bahay niya kanina at ipakita sa kanya ang papel na proof na ginawa namin ang dapat naming gawin! alam mo yun inapakan niya dignidad ko eh, she didn't take into consideration my side? di naman namin kasalanan ni ching na one guy forgot to check what he had to check noh. i'm sorry for this but i lost respect na with that prof of mine dahil dun sa ginawa niya. bagsakan ka ba naman ng telepono noh. i mean, she teaches CHRISTIAN MORALITY but she can't even practice it? pano naman yun diba? sige, tao lang siya at nagkakamali but i was just hurt that of all the people who can do that to me, madre pa, the one who you least expect to do that thing to you. grabe. magulo na mundo ko hanggang maayos ko 'to. i don't want to flunk relstri noh. please lang. ugh.
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11:05 PM
